Celenque – End of a story

” Mes histoires commencent toutes par il était une dernière fois ” – Fuzati

La Chute:

It was the First and Last time I would write on the board, 107 days of resistance in the cold of Spanish winter ” 2 baffes pour quelques uns, pour les autres ca sera la lutte ” – Fuzati

107After another night in Celenque, at morning time when watching the Bankia employees going to start their shift, we were taking our breakfast, I´ve been made the honour to write the number 107 in the blackboard,   the number of days those people stand in front of the Bankia HQ.

The night was not a boring one, las5deSol a few meters away needed operational support for their occupy action, after over 100 days Celenque had everything needed from Acampamiento Amigo, from tent to cover, stocks of food, carbon to maintain fire up, they were up to help and support Las5deSol, that we as Coordinadora25S supported since their first minutes by our physical presence.

I spend my night alternating between Las5deSol and Celenque, moving stuff from a place to another, talking with the Police, meeting new people, that was a great night.

After a nice breakfast, I went to sleep, I had to attend 2 assembly in the afternoon and go to the Police station of Lavapiès at 1100AM needed to get a few hours of rest.
We went to the Police station to surrender ourselves, as dissidents of 15M likes movements, Okupa and others similar platforms were declared outlaws.

They didn´t accepted us to get into the Police station, but they did ID check some of us, weird people…

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At that moment, I was trying to be everywhere, attending Coordinadora25S assemblies, spending nights between Celenque en Sol, trying to be in most of the demonstrations, not only against the PP in calle Genova, but also with the others groups I use to support previously ( Afectados por preferentes pro ejemplo) and the most time consuming, doing my best for the Coordinadora not to implode. Which I partially failed to do so, I will get to that point in a next blog entry.

Revolution became a full time job.  After spending the day on my stuffs, I wanted to spend the night in Celenque, but I needed to get a nap first, I started my nap and woke up 8 hours after.

When I woke up, I had a terrible whatsapp message, the police had removed the people of Celenque, in the most horrible way, injuring an 83 years old lady, throwing her to the ground because she approach the wrong Policeman to closer, I guess he perceived the lady as a danger and the situation required him to use violence for self-defense.

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In 107 Days the PAH did complete their principal mission, getting the Half million signature to empower the ILP with over 1.5 millions signatures.

Entrega en el Congreso:

The Police came with the cleaning service and Trash trucks, they binned all the food, hardware, and personal stuffs people had with them, can you imagine that, homeless people being taken away the few they´ve got, this is the price of resistance.

Celenque Before the Police expulsion, Xmas dinner:

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Celenque After the Police expulsion:

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Celenque during the ” Preferentes ” demonstration

Where were you when these people needed you ? Me I was sleeping … I guess the same for you … I hope you feel the same shame as I do…

If you do, get on the fucking street and stop to accept what is so, it is so because you make it so by the total obedience and submission of our daily lifes… Yes, WE.

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Why I believe Spain is not (yet) ready for it’s revolution – Open letter to the 25S

I have learn from Quantum biology and a 3 years in the French army what is required for a hand of entities to achieve the impossible: unity, or rather saying oneness.

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The human body is composed of over one trillion cells, which is equivalent to more or less the amount of stars in the milky way, each cells is an individual entity, cells have their own digestive system, they are able to make individual decision, some cells will decide to sacrify themselves, when the exact same kind of cell can take the decision to enter in protective mode in regards of a danger, the ability to make a decision is what I define as consciousness. A cell is like a human, a multi-organic living entity with the ability to reproduce itself and transmit is memory to the next cell, this is why the skin remembers pain, even if the skin’s cells have a lifespan of 30 days. Exactly as we tend to transmit our experience to our child.
In a purest way as they transmit an experience, not a possibly manipulated point of view. A cell can not lie to his child.

Cells experiences different level of emotions, in the exact same process as we, humans, as a body do. There are sensor in bodies our skins which are receiving an experience and sending to whoever it concerns a bio-electric signal corresponding to the given experience. Cells also work this way by the “cell membrane”, the cell’s skin and the bio-chemical code sent by our brain in regard of every single experience we live. Right now, your brain is creating a bio-code regarding your perception of this very blog entry. Depending on if you agree, reject, love, fear, think etc, the bio-code will be different.
As our behavior changes depending of the experiences with face in our context of evolution.

Emotions cells are also created by your neuronal system, located both in your brain and heart, depending how you perceive this experience they might be created in your brain, your heart or both. Emotion cells defines our bio-chemical code at a body level, which means it creates the context of evolution of our cells.This is Deepak chopra teachings, master of quantum biology. Below an animal cell and it’s organs as an example.

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Over one trillion cells, communicate in 2 ways to give the process of information and energy we call mind and the body which appears to be one giant and unique cell that we are aware of.
Local communication, where cells interact directly with each others like humans does in a conversation, by email or with a phone call.
Non local communication, which allows the magic trick of oneness between all the cells, they are performing as one entity, us.

Non local communication would be for humans to perform without the need of local communication, like when several persons performs a job with no need of coordination, they all knows what has to be done, when and why, the team act as one entity.

There really is no much difference between us and a cell, it’s all a matter of scale and once more, I believe we should be inspire by nature, it has reach perfection.

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Sadly, from my experience in social movement, peoples are acting in a less evolved way than their cells, protagonism, ego’s offense and defense, the law of the strongest, the law of the smartest defines some individuality, the alpha-male has to show himself to all others around him to insure respect within the revolutionary group or rather saying, movement.
Applying this model to our body, we would be quiet messed up. Imagine the cells of the ass insulting the cells of the heart just because they have a different perception, the cells of the hand refusing to coordinate themselves with the legs, the primitive brain refusing to talk with the eyes, that would be a mess don’t you think ?
Life would just not work as body entities, like social movements are not working for the exact same reasons.

They defines themselves in an open minded spirit but would not accept a facist in their team, they talk about horizontality in power but show out their dominant side when an idea goes against theirs, they can’t even talk to each others with respect and dignity, and yet they have slogan like “Safe the democracy”, they don’t even act at an individual level, they act as an ego level. I am not making generality here, I’am not judging anyone neither, but this is a fact of experience, some people does act this way.

But here is my promise to all of them, rather than acting as the strongest to dominate, act as the strong one to protect the oppressed and you will feel more than a mere satisfaction of the ego’s power, you will rule over the rulers with the power of compassion,
Instead of showing off you are the smartest (because you shout the louder), use your skills to create and open minded context an educate these with old ideas based on a fear context such as nationalism and facism, then you will do more than pleasing your ego, you will rule over your context and shift the perception of others, being finally what you pretend to be, inclusive.

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It’s in the behavior of acting as one and insuring that no one is left behind that you will succeed in eliminating the frustrations which create division, learn to speak gently when you are offended, not to offend, no to hurt feelings of others, learn to forgive the offenses you perceive in the words of others, they are based on ignorance.

Ignorance must not be repressed it must be educated with love, this is my definition of being ” a real man ” (I hate this concept, but that’s a good image) rather saying “an evolved being” , the power of understanding, the love of forgiveness and the skill of no retaliation is what makes a great revolutionary.

But of course there are also these great revolutionary in social movement, wise, understanding and living in a full acceptance, I’m in love with these blessed Souls and I can tell you, they are a lot of them in the Coordinadora25S.
We shall now work all together to create this state of mind and being of unity.

The solution is clearly not in removing the ego-acting individualities, the solution is in offering them the understanding of the concept and providing them the context to experience it.

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When you engage in the army, in my native nation you have a 3 months period dedicated to create brotherhood and oneness in the group of new recruits, peoples are pushed in their mental and physical limits, till the breakdown, it allows recruters to evaluate individual mental levels, build up cohesion and unity inside the team, you end up with 30 brothers for who you would be ready to risk your life for, in all sharing the same shit and struggle, it creates natural strong links between individual whatever the social cast or education level they come from, it’s horizontal (as all are new recruits) and united (like the cells of our body), but it cost 3 months of 24/7 pressure, there is another natural way to create the same result of brotherhood between people, it’s love.

Even if I believe that the social context of Spain is creating a similar context as the army training, too many people yet are not willing to share the pie of shit, they rather give their part to the people struggling in finishing theirs.

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First at a team level between the members as the revolutionaries groups, to show the examplarity politician have lost, then applied at a national level it would allow any nation to end suffering in less than a day, poor’s would feast, not in an act of charity but as a natural consequence of our unity, people in grief would never be left alone in a natural feeling of common well being, there would be not a Soul sleeping in the streets (Love for Celenque – Madrid), no one would allow is neighbor to suffer from his social context, people will stop to commit suicide for loosing their houses, any negative experience would impact the general happiness of all, in a conscient way  – it does in fact, but we do not care – ( It sounds as the cancer of a few cells impact Tthe general state of our body).
It’s as easy as it’s sound, I believe it worth the try.

Sadly we have created an actual context of fear and division, hierarchical at a family, social and professional level empowered by a set of senseless rules, follow the rules or fear the consequences, in this state of mind we are raising our kids, leading our companies and organizing our society. The problem is deeply implemented in our thinking system, and the reaction to fear is submission or domination…

People shows off their ego’s in the fear to be judged, in the fear to be less, in the fear to be rejected, degraded, in the fear of loosing something,not because they like it, but they think they have to protect themselves in this way to outer aggression or stress, this is how they have learned it, there is no one to blame and less to judge. The only cure I know to fear is Love.

When I say love, I mean love in it’s true meaning, unconditional and global, not the kind of love we experience when saying “I love you” and expecting an (perceived as deserved) ” I love you too”, this is business not love, an exchange of love, ” I give you mine, you give me yours”, these are expectations, where stand expectations, stands condition to be met, if the love deal is not fulfilled, start the fear cycle, this is the way our civilization love, it’s a pervert form of love, this love bounces fear when the conditions are not met.

Unconditional love is the way a child love, embedded in their nature, by instinct they knows this natural form of love, until we parents demonstrate them that love must be earned and deserved.

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This is the way I try to love any Soul I cross in my path, with no conditions, no expectations, this is the way I love you brothers and sisters of the Coordinadora, this is the way I love my baby girl and her mum, the way I love my blood family and so, my specie family. This is the way I love the cops when they hit me or lock me for 24hours in a jail full of pee without letting me falling asleep, this is the way I love the one who thinks he oppressed me, within different levels of affinities of course, but  all forms of life are entitled to this love, a love without judgements, conditions or expectations.

I invite you to this experience, love health fear, love unite and love performs miracles, the day we will be able to interact between each others in this state of being, not only we will bring any government down, but we will show the world the power of unity, oneness and love. That might sounds a very long way, but we are talking about a revolution, so we will have to “be the change we wish to reflect into the world”.

It will start as soon as we decide to interact that way with each others.

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I might be the only one I can’t love that way, I need expectations in regards of myself and how I live my experiences, but that’s something I’m working on 🙂

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Edit: I have seen twitter’s and facebook’s shares, that was unexpected ! Thanks that’s very nice of you 🙂

Rich men’s Christmas

” No tenemos casa, pero tenemos jamon pata negra ”

After my first night in plaza Celenque (where homeless families occupies the HQ of Bankia -Plataforma de Afectados por las Hipotecas- in order to protest against the robbery of their houses by an illegitimate gouvernement voting laws to allows banks to take possession of people’s houses without cancelling their debts), I truly wanted to spend Christmas with them. They are modern superhero, the PAH have blocked over 500 houses embargo by collecting signature for each families menaced and pressured the banks, they have collected over a millions signatures to change the law regarding expulsion and embargo, they are in Celenque since now 64 days  (on 25/12/2012), these families sleeps in the streets and keep fighting for the others not to loose their houses, I believe that I am not that strong as they are, if one day I’d have find myself in the street with my baby girl,  I would surely have shot myself a bullet in the head like so many Spanish people did on the embargo day… they decided to keep fighting, I admire them.

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I wasn’t alone, my brother Kedies had decided to join me in my trip to Madrid, we went both to participate to the #20Dluto as to this wonderful Christmas evening. We brought them some food and joined what was going to be, my first true Christmas.

Kedies is not a brother in the means of blood, as Mickael and Nicolas my lovely 2 wonderful blood brothers, Kedies is a brother in the means of heart,like his uncle Abdel AKA Bassitup with who, I had spend the previous Christmas last year. We are a true family, we all knows cousins, mother, brothers, even grand mothers of each others. It’s wonderful how far love can go when there is no expectation but the love of a brother.

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Bassitup is the brother thanks to who I can participate in the Madrid events, he never denied to offer me his sofa, contacting my mum to tell her I am all right when I fail to do so, making up my heart stories when I fuck up, to share his food, his feelings and whatever he could knowing that I’d never be able to return him the half of what he did for me, this is family, I am lucky to have a dozen of these brothers, so lucky, there is nothing like the love of family, even if we don’t express that love as much as it should be celebrated, we all knows how deep we love each others.

I always perceived Christmas as negative since I am twelve, wishing death for the 25 December, see my blood family splitting apart in clashes and cries, but that’s also true that before this, I always enjoyed unboxing the gift, allowing the adults to payback their sentimental debts with materialistic values.

Today I’m 30, I’ve a different vision how what should be Christmas, my perception evolved, I want my Christmas to be a dedication of Jesus values, unconditional love and compassion rather than materialistic definition of love. The biggest the gift, the more love is expressed, our culture raped the spirit of Christmas. I truly perceive that offering a material gift to Christmas sound’s like going to mcdonald’s in order to celebrate Che Guevarra’s life, but that’s my perception.

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I am not downgrading the Christmas I had previously with my family, it is just a new perception of Christmas that I wish to experience from now on which does not fit our cultural experience of it, I love you mum and grand mum for having made our Christmas like you did during our childhood, you know I would never had understand this 15 years ago, I would have hate the whole world for not having the gift I wanted, this is how stupid, ignorant and blind I was. Today thanks to you I have reach this perception, and this is the best gift you ever made to me. The irony of duality in experience…

Context given, you can now have a better understanding of my decision to spend this evening in Celenque.

We have been received and cared like kings, people thanked us for being there, when we were the one who shall have get on our knees to demonstrate our gratitude to be there, we were asked every 5 min to take a plate of that delicious food ( what a banquet we had !!!!!!!!!!!!!! ) made of donation and cook with love, the food truly tasted love, we were singing, eating, dancing, loving each others, laughing, the time of a night we all forgot we where fighting against banking corporation and a government without dignity, even if no one forgot they were homeless, I can truly tell you that we were the most happy.

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The TV came over, accepted because being from the Sexta (one of the only TV channel in Spain who kept his objectivity and doesn’t manipulate people words and images, at least not that much), they shared a couple of hours with us, the reporter and cameraman were good fun, they brought with us love and good mood, that was also a notable point, they gave me a bit more faith in journalism. The Sexta in Spain is one of the major TV channel

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Luis our doyen had a Santa Claus costume to had some more fun, he gave the kids their gifts, I had a tear when one of the girl came to show me her gifts (and to everyone, she was so happy to come to every person to show what gift she had received) , she had two books and stars in her eyes, I’m crying writing this, at her age I was unpacking video games, having food excess in my mummy’s house and not understanding what Christmas was about. With two books she had more than I ever had, her perception of these gifts made me realize how poor I was and how poor I would ever be even with a million dollar banknote gift.
The perception of Christmas experience is the true gift, she’s less than 15 and she already got that, how rich are these people ? Way that I could always pretend to be, another master have cross my path for a huge emotional lesson, on this day.

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A family joined us after I suppose their family dinner, a couple and their two kids ( around 6 and 10 years old ) joined the fun, this is the kind of parent I wish I could be, to bring my baby to such emotional event, this is the kind of father I dream to be, a teacher by the means of creating an experience, such a wonderful and funny family.

When we started with the music, the police patrol present 24/7 (I guess the police support the cause) came to make us shut it down, what we did, a few hours after we had a second try, they did not bother the second time.

We were rich, really rich, when richness is love, I know that we were richer than Goldman and Rotschild, so thanks to you people in Celenque, you offered me more than I could ever offer to anyone for this wonderful day, you brought back the definition of family to his higher level, a family not define by blood but by brotherhood, thank you.

I love you, merry Christmas to all.
Julien

End of a dream

I spent a 10 days with my wonderful little girl, it was magical, I truly was in a dreaming state. After 8 months without seeing her it has been an emotionnal shock, so far I used to say that I never had the pleasure to meet a true master.
Nashira, my wonderful daughter, you have remind me so much, so many lessons I ve learnt from you, your pure innocence and the exctasy of the unconditional love are from the greatest teachings and experiences I had in my life.

It was hard to leave you, very hard, I truly felt my heart splitting apart, my mind and body wanted to stay with you, it was too magical to give it up, I felt the sadness and loneliness coming from my heart, creating my thoughts, I cried a lot and it felt good (Until it remind me how headhache and crying for sadness was related) but I accepted it, it was and still is my choice, when I am spending my time in trying to change the things of our world, I feel like it is the most meaningfull act I can experience in my life, but being with you, I knew that it was the most pleasant thing I could experience.
I miss you so much, so so so much, from now on, whatever happens to me, I will always carry these beautiful memories that I have tatooed on my Soul.
See you soon my love, very soon …

Your innocence is a teaching by it’s essence,

Your blind trust in a context in which people fears their own brothers ,
Your way to love unconditionally in a world on the edge to celebrate their values and demonstrate their love in the condition of materialism,
You are the perfect image of pure awereness in a world of walking and consuming bodies,
You are a being full of curiosity and wander in a world full of fears answering every question with violence,
Your total self-acceptance in a world in which people go to surgery to redefine and accept who they are,
Your instinctive knowingness in world who only can believe what it sees and only understand what it can explain,

You are a model, I love you.

The way you have to call the moon as if it was your life-time friend, you don’t even wonder if it’s alive, you just know it, may be you even feel it,

You do not yet have the social barriers that will cut the sight from this pure and instinctive knowledge, you have yet no ego, one day you will loose a part of this, it’s the process of each of us, to gain individuality we must create and feed an ego (Then one day you might realize it only is a jail to your inner wisdom and power).

The feeling of the experience of oneness, I can feel that the same source is embedded inside us, the same energy drives us, one day I’ve read ” If you can not find God in a flower, in a rainbow or in another being, you wont find it in a religious book

I did understood the concept, but merely have the experience in my lifetime, surely not enough to convert the concept and experience in knowledge, I could never be grateful enough for this time of growing and loving, I found God into your eyes.

You remind me who I was, a cell in the cosmic body, linked to all other cells by the magic of our subjective individualilty of the eternal soul.

Thanks for the knowledge my love, a poem from Rabindranath Tagore, Love you.


The Beginning – Rabindranath Tagore

Where have I come from, where did you pick me up?” the baby asked its mother.
She answered, half crying, half laughing, and clasping the
baby to her breast

“You were hidden in my heart as its desire, my darling.
You were in the dolls of my childhood’s games; and when with
clay I made the image of my god every morning, I made the unmade you then.
You were enshrined with our household deity, in his worship I worshipped you.
In all my hopes and my loves, in my life, in the life of my mother you have lived.
In the lap of the deathless Spirit who rules our home you have been nursed for ages.
When in girlhood my heart was opening its petals, you hovered as a fragrance about it.
Your tender softness bloomed in my youthful limbs, like a glow in the sky before the sunrise.
Heaven’s first darling, twain-born with the morning light, you have floated down the stream of the world’s life, and at last you have stranded on my heart.
As I gaze on your face, mystery overwhelms me; you who belong to all have become mine.
For fear of losing you I hold you tight to my breast.
What magic has snared the world’s treasure in these slender arms of mine?”

Rabindranath Tagore

Thank you

This evening I had the great honor and immense pleasure to assist to the Coordinadora assembly, I’m wordless, I can say I had forgotten how good it feels to experience who you truly are.

I shall express what I feel, sincerity being one of the tool to shape humanness, so thanks to all of you people of the Coordinadora, I have been surprised to realize how many of you are following this blog, but my thanks are not for this reason, at all, I must admit that this is meaningless compared to the fact that thanks to you, I can live this experience and define myself in harmony with my convictions, beliefs, values and philosophy of life. This is priceless to a Soul, at least to mine.

The Buddha Gotama understood that Enlightement is achieved when one experience who he truly is, and Confucius that Wisdom can only be reached in a social context based on love, you now can have a better understanding of the gift you are making to me by accepting me being one of yours, I had never met my true self before meeting you. I merely had an idea of who I was, but without the experience of it.
A concept + the experience = knowing. In this formula, you allowed me the experience.

I also want to thanks you from the bottom of my heart for being such wonderful souls, for your giants heart in which we could fit the world, for not having given up, for still being so creative and active, for being yourselves.

So many new faces, new hearts, new Souls since I had left, so many people from who I keep learning, words after words, interaction after interaction, smile after smile, I don’t believe life to be a school, but you guys as individuals and as an entity are from the best teachers I ever met, dedicated to change your context, single minded in helping those in need, I feel really honored to know each of you and being able to see you again, to hug you and to talk to you again gave me wings, you are an abundant source of love and this is all the world needs.

I truly, deeply, sincerely, and unconditionally love you, each of you.
As I said in previous post, I do not apply label to my love, but if I would, I would label this love as family, I love you and care for you as I’d for my brothers or my baby girl.

I wish you good luck for the 14N, please take a great care of each others,
And again, Thanks for shaping the world with your heart,

Truly yours,
Julien